Um

Remember baby seal guy? 

Turns out he's "sort of going to China in six months".
For another nine months.

I'm getting braces, y'all!

This November. Not only that, but the orthodontist said they were willing to do it for free. What is up. Gah, so excited.

Also, I got a new battery for my laptop. Everything effin' works again! The mouse, the screen, everything!

It wasn't her. OOPS, well, my bad then.

Hello, it's me again

And I'm sad to say that I dove head-first into an emotional breakdown today. I can't concentrate on anything, school least of all, people even less, so what do I do? I blog.

I used to just casually roleplay via mobile with this girl for like 3 years, every day, but we sort of lost contact about a year ago. She lives near me, but we never really discussed meeting or anything like that. We were pretty tight though. But today I recognised her walking towards me on the street. I froze and she walked past me, I just didn't know what to say. I wanted to say something. I wanted to reach out to her, say hi, talk to her, but I was scared shitless that she wouldn't be interested in talking to me at all. I just told her my name like a year ago. I don't believe she even knows how I look, I've been far more secretive than her, sometimes crazily and unnecessarily so.

I haven't felt this much regret since I don't even know when. I've been wanting to bang my head against a wall all day. I should have said something. What harm could it have done?

Well, by the time I got over myself I had gone to meet my friends, but then I texted her, telling her kind of awkwardly that I thought I just spotted her. She hasn't replied yet, and I'm thinking maybe she changed her number or something. We haven't texted in about 1½ months, so it's a possibility.

I guess I'll just wait it out.

I'm so full of regret, I don't even understand what this is.

Just get it fixed

First off, my laptop is not well. Laptop is, in fact, broken. No right-click function to speak of in weeks. Scroll and dragging function is not good either. Mouse freezes every time the computer starts up. Mouse doesn't work in Adobe Flash Video (YouTube!!). Battery is barely hanging in there. Sounds about the time to get my machine fixed, right? Well....

I did beat those flaws, but I gotta admit these are the worst kind of solutions. Totally unnecessary. 

• The broken right-click function has rendered me unable to save images. I fixed that by highlighting the image and using the context menu button to go to 'view selection source', and clicking on the url that pops up in the next window. From there I can use ctrl + s.

• Sometimes the mouse freezes at first when Windows opens. Ctrl + Alt + Del and open the task manager in Windows. Mouse works fine again.

• I figured out that, when on YouTube, the mouth works just fine on the videos when I open up a smaller window over the site first, and then hover above the video.

• Nothing much to do about the battery, really...... The laptop doesn't randomly shut off, but it only lives 20-30 minutes at a time before the battery dies without warning. I've got a power cord.

So as you can see I'm not desperate yet. It's a drag, but other than that the computer's fine. The not being able to play Sims 2 will probably do me in sooner or later though.

Is this pettiness?

So I bring a guy home, he's cuter than a baby seal, but he does not approve of the clock in my room. Now... I like my clock, in fact I love it. It is special, I will admit. It's looks like a tv break screen, if you recall those? Round, lots of colours? Anywho. I know it's silly, and not the more important issue here (guys--not to mention cute ones--are a rare occurrence in my room... yup) ... but I couldn't let the clock thing go. I just, I had to know exactly what he didn't like about it. I mean overall it fits my room, so it's not like it POPS in your face the moment you step in. I all but interrogated him, and I felt like I had to apologise when he finally admitted that, as a kid, he always thought those break screens where annoying as hell. He took my insanity like a champion though, bless him, and even said he understood:

"I have this big collage on my wall with words from the Danish dictionary that I find interesting. I get upset when people tell me it's uncool. But it's their problem. It's my room, y'know?"

Oh yes I do know. Also, MAY I?!

I'm gonna keep you posted on this guy.

I don't have much to say

This is me being a twat and not updating anything but my tumblr. I simply don't have anything remarkable to share here. My life used to be worth something once, I don't know what this is. All I can say is that I'm writing again. Big time.

I'M MAKING FRIENDS AT 3 AM

I LOVE YOU INTERNET

Quirks

We all have them, right? The little things that either make us stand out from the rest, or otherwise different from other people. (I should probably say "normal" people, in my case.)

• I suck my tongue, not as much as I used to, but I've done it since I was very young. My mum always calls me out on this one, even though I don't subconsciously part my lips anymore, she can tell right away. I do it more when I'm tired or at rest, and is usually accompanied by the following:
• I touch my hair. A lot. I run my fingers through a particular lock of hair, I twirl it, straighten it out, tug at it, forever. I touch my hair all the friggin' time. I started doing it just now, when I paused to reply to a text message. I've been told it's most likely a complex motor tic...
• I cannot bring myself to drink whatever is left at the bottom of a glass -- as I'm emptying it, that is! I just have to stop before I drink the last of it. In my mind, there is something bad in that last bit that I just can't have inside me
• I'm wary of being inside banks
• I always check behind the shower curtain
• Sometimes, when I'm in a confined space full of people, I get paranoid that they can read my mind. So I start an internal rant of nonsense, or try to mentally address every person around me to see if they react
• I used to get panic attacks when I got a phone call from an unknown caller, and it still kind of freaks me out when I do
• Turns out I'm into sci-fi (FEELINGS-)erotica. Yeah, not particularly ashamed.

Okay, so some of these may fall under the category of mental issues rather than quirks, but um. I don't know. Maybe I need to talk to someone.

My Buster Keaton impression

Yeah it's not the best. But guess what, this is mine now. Can't wait to sink my teeth into this baby in Italy. And this will be my first time reading an autobiography as well, so it should be interesting.

Just remembered

Well, it was more like a flashback to be honest. I think I purged at some point during my party. I remember I went to the bathroom and didn't feel well, but not so bad that I had to vomit. I remember being impatient and sitting on the bathroom floor next to the toilet, waiting to feel sick so I could get back to the party. And I didn't, so I purged. I promised myself I wouldn't do it ever again, but I didn't even think anything of it then. Seemed like the best thing to do, since I got rid of basically everything, and this was shortly after I did my shots. I felt much better afterwards, and didn't mention it to anybody. I didn't feel embarrassed. Now I do.

My 18th birthday

...Was pretty awesome. Around 18 people. Very nice, not too many people for me to drift back and forth between, and eventually most of them had been introduced and were able to mingle pretty well with each other. I was drunk most of the... entire night, but okay, I remember stuff what happened in sequences, so here goes

• Did 12 shots....? Not 18? Opinions seem to vary on that, and I don't remember. In any case I did all but 1, because that shit was nothing but thick liquoricey stuff, and I'm never allowing that shit back into my body ever again.
• Random drunk guy started pestering us, actually made it inside somehow, and mum and the guys had to shoo him off like 4 times? Dude, you're stressing people out, please leave.
• Started crying because of something that was said to me the day before.... as you do, when you're far too unstable to be hosting parties like this, or... any parties at all, pfft. A took me outside and we talked for a while, and then it was all okay.
• F, P, and I totally wore matching clothes. So flippin' awesome.

Gifts were all lovely, I have some of the most amazing people in the world. <3 Very much looking forward to Wednesday on which my family and I + A, will be going out for Italian to celebrate the actual day of my birth. Very excited

Just say yes

They've legalised same-sex marriages in Denmark. Thanks for that. Very nice. I never understood the issue in the first place. It's as it says on thousands of supportive banners, signs and images: "Marriage is a human right, not a heterosexual privilege." Finally we're getting somewhere. I'm not entirely sure whether I like the idea that the government interferes with the church or not though. Even as I support gay marriage, I feel like there should be a line somewhere, I don't know. Seems to me like they're headed in the right direction on their own, since the majority of priests in Danish churches are willing to marry gay couples, and one can conclude that the people of the church today are neither unreasonable nor obstinate in terms of cultural and lawful progress. The way I see it, it seems as though it's rarely the religion itself, but the religious and the way they interpret that religion who are ultimately the problem with religion. A religion can be undeniably impractical, not to mention unreasonable (-- and most are!), but I've learned that this is far from the case when you look at its followers. Man is not impractical or unreasonable by design. So I think most religious people are getting it right just by being human, and sooner or later those old priests will have to die anyway, right?

"Oh, so you don’t support gay marriage? Tell me more about how it directly affects your life."

It's cheap medicine

Where did my weekend go?

Mum got home

She looks at me and essentially goes: "Oh, you are shitfaced. I'm not dragging your sorry ass around Ikea for two hours." And she brought me a magazine from the train with a story on my favourite comedian.

I love my mum.

Friday full of apathy

Went to Distortion with A and P. Waited at Østerbro St for forever for a night bus. I have no clue how, but eventually we ended up at Copenhagen Central Station around 5 am. We decided it would be easier to just ride the train home, since they were just starting to run around for the day. Was fucking freezing the entire time. So if I get sick in these couple of next days you heard it here first. Slept at A's place, but I'm finally back home now. So, so tired. And I have to go Ikea with my mum later, and this weekend we're going to Jutland for a(nother) confirmation, I can't even. This whole moving out, in, and filling in the blanks, along with exams is just... God, I'm so looking forward to Italy.

But hey, I lost a kilo. (y)

Seriously, living this close to the ground is getting me all paranoid, I just can't shake this feeling that people are watching me through the windows.

OMG SO MANY FEELS YOU DON'T EVEN KNOOOW

Remind me to tell you all later about these things

• how moving is fucking stressful
• sisterbonding
• how this guy doesn't get it
• how frustrating that is
• how much of a dick I can be
• red walls
• teenage rebellion (better late than never, right?)

Is this really my life?

Let's get weird, numero dos

• 1: What is the real reason you are confused right now? I'm in the AM, this should not be more appealing than sleep.
• 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? Not anymooore.
• 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? As a rule, nah. Depends how often and how much, though?
• 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Nah.
• 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Writing a synopsis.
• 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? A is, duh.
• 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Tell them to get cute real fast and then demand an explanation.
• 8: Are you close with your dad? In a manner, but I guess the way daughters usually are.
• 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Synopsis, remember? No social life.
• 10: What are you listening to? Airplanes outside.
• 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Carbonated water with citrus.
• 12. Do you like hickeys? I like making fun of people who get them?
• 13: What time do you go to bed? 11-2.30 am.
• 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Probably, but I don't keep record.
• 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? No way in hell.
• 16: Do you always answer your texts? Nope, coz I'm a dick.
• 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? No. My fall, my problem.
• 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Around 9 pm-ish?
• 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Yeeess.
• 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably it was synopsis-related...
• 21: Is anyone else in the room with you? It's dark, but I fucking hope not.
• 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yes. Karma. I'm there.
• 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? Probably yes.
• 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Yes.
• 25: In the past week, have you cried? Yeah, watching Reichenbach.
• 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Yellow.
• 27: Do people ever call you by your last name? Ah, no.
• 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Not if I ignore them FIRST.
• 29: Do you have a best friend? Yup.
• 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Nah, but I might be a little jealous though, she's great.
• 31: Who was your last call from? F, boy from class.
• 32: Are you mad at anyone? Not mad, just mildly irritated.
• 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
• 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 18!
• 35: How many more days until your birthday? 22!
• 36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Veniiice.
• 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Yes.
• 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Nothing of immediate nature...
• 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Umm... could it be that it's so secret I never told myself?
• 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Oh, yeah.
• 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? When the younger of the two is below the age of 21, yes.
• 42: Are you available? I am now.
• 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? Pass.
• 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Belly button.
• 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Yes.
• 46: Do you regret anything? BAHA.
• 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Boys.
• 48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Yeah.
• 49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Nah, it was bound to happen.
• 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Don't like anybody.
• 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? Nope.
• 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Yes.
• 53: What was the last thing you ate? Cherries.
• 54: Did you get any compliments today? It's 2:30 am, but I wouldn't deny the possibility.
• 55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Italy!
• 56: Do you own anything from other countries? Keychains, books, clothes, etc. etc.
• 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Girls. Huh.
• 58: Where have you lived most of your life? Hvidovre.
• 59: When was the last time you took a long drive? Try never.
• 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? I remember the birthday parties...
• 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? Nope.
• 62: Who do you text the most? People who text me.
• 63: What was the last movie you saw? Men In Black II.
• 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Pass.
• 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010? Zip.
• 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? Yes.
• 67: Do you curse around your parents? Just my mum.
• 68: Are you happy with where you live? Well, we're moving, so...
• 69: Do you collect anything? Sugar.
• 70: What’s your favourite colour? Red.
• 71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone? Nah.
• 72: Has anyone ever cheated on you? Yeah.
• 73: What are your plans for tomorrow? Hand in synopsis. Get wasted at pool party.
• 74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one? Nope.
• 75: Does your last ex have a job? No.
• 76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship? Nothing.
• 77: Where is your cellphone? Um.... nearby, surely?
• 78: What colour is your cellphone? Black.
• 79: What did you dream of last night? Man it was so good, but I don't remember.
• 80: Are you atheist? Nope, agnostic.
• 81: Will you change your name when you get married? Depends, if he/she's got a cool name I don't see why not.
• 82: Are you ready for autumn weather? Give me two weeks.
• 83: Have you had any big storms recently? NO AND THEY PROMISED.
• 84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing? Organic H&M briefs.

Naaah, I still like the ladies better as it stands

They know what I'm talkin' 'bout.

Also

• suddenly guys are paying attention to me again
• i don't know how to feel about that
• semi-vegetarian cooking urges are out of control
• ribs/collarbones are making appearances lately
• i can't handle moving and studying for exams at the same time
• i think maybe mum understands
• 18th birthday is coming up in less than a month

I need more time

Seriously. Why, out of all the instances I could possibly think to stumble upon gorgeously written fanfiction, does it have to be when I'm right in the middle of exams-killing-me-slowly-weekend? Thank God it's just 5 pages. Well, technically it's 3, but I plan to make it to 5-6 because I'm a motherfucking dweeb B-student with an innate desire to please. I shouldn't even be blogging, you won't believe the time I have already wasted. But I'm all alone today, so no one's here todisturbme--I'm totally making an omelette and a salad for dinner. Maybe I'll find time to work on my English presentation tonight?

Anthropodermic bibliopegy

I don't want to be aware of these terms!

Seriously, though

How did I ever have these thighs without noticing? DAMMIT -flails-

Trip to Louisiana

I like Andreas Gursky's photographs.

Yes, I went with A and his mum, but I was feeling much better... shut up, it's legit since I've been locked inside for two days. Did have a coughing fit in the gift shop though, which was embarrassing as hell... I bought a ring -- an organic little thing, with a smooth blue stone. Managed to misplace it already... I'm confident it will return to me not before long though.

Sneezing when you're about to pee

I'm sure I don't need to elaborate any further on that.
Can't focus on homework at all.

The Evil Illness

I definitely have it. And as if that wasn't enough, I had to attend two confirmations this weekend. I felt fine when I got on the train to Frederikssund on Thursday, but by Friday morning when I had to be social I just wanted to curl up into a ball and die. It was really nice, but I felt sort of bad just wanting to retreat to the couch all the time and wrap myself in grandma's red wool coat. I got particularly nauseous during the afternoon, and managed to sneak off to the bathroom. Now, the last time I went into that bathroom I was insane and tried to make myself throw up, but this time it happened pretty much all on its own. Dizziness and blurry vision followed, and I saw fit to lie down on the bathroom rug (wasn't even that drunk, you won't believe how accustomed I am to this), close my eyes, and curled up into a ball. Did not die. Later I had a minor stress-induced episode with my grandma, who sort of pressured me into staying the night even though I only brought clothes for Friday -- didn't bother me none later on though, I still managed to get my English analysis done.

Saturday was bliss, but then came the cough.

And this morning I was done for. My throat sore and constricted, and I couldn't speak. No voice whatsoever. Even those grunting sounds we all use to communicate in the mornings just came out sort of squeaky and painful. And oh God, the coughing. We were off to Jutland for another confirmation, and guess what, I ended up in the bathroom as well. Not because I was nauseous, but because my skin was all flaky due to my sunburn and I was desperately trying to remedy it. I sucked it up eventually, and it was okay, though I coughed my way through the whole thing.

Still coughing.

My eyes are blurry and watery, and my head aches -- perfectly ideal conditions for blogging, no?

I really feel like I should have just stayed home this weekend and done my homework in bed. I was kind of mean to a lot of people due to my being stressed and generally feeling icky, and that bugs me to no end. Music got me through this weekend, these songs in particular:

These Times by Safetysuit

Criminal by Britney Spears

Wherever You Will Go by Charlene Soraia

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer

Sail by AWOLNATION

Sunburned forehead

Suddenly you realise how much you frown during the day. Ow.

Also

• Did not gain weight. I gotta work it from here, guys
• Went to Fælleden yesterday and got the first sun burn of the year
• Which is kind of a bitch since I gotta be on screen today
• We are officially moving
• I love love love Aloe Vera

I take that back, I'm freakin' brilliant in social situations

YES

YES YES YES SHERLOCK HAS MADE IT TO DANISH TELEVISION

So pissed

"Haven't you gained weight since the last time I saw you?"

I wasn't born with enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel right now.

Going to prom tonight

Yeah, I'm, just, not sure how this is gonna go. Frankly I'm stressed out and I just want to drink like it's nobody's business. I've become so bad at socialising, so awkward, and trying to get along with an enormous amount of drunk people isn't always the way to go. I should have bought new shoes along with my dresses, but I suppose those stilettos will have to do. I'll bring other shoes. I'll sit at a table and drink all night, preferably not by myself. Company is nice as long as it's nice. Yup. Probably won't be dancing much this time -- next year. Next year I'll be dancing properly.

Tuesday night too early to start drinking?

I really don't think so. Headaches are back, everybody's stressed out and hatin' on each other. Casually sipping a bit of liquor in passing won't hurt anybody, it'll just help me sleep a little better. I ended up buying two dresses today, and for a price too, so I guess that's something. My touch pad is fucked up, so I'm learning to use shortcuts on the keyboard now. Le sigh. Seriously, the battery needs changing too. I think I'm gonna go darken the doorstep of Elgiganten (I think it's from Elgiganten?) one of these days. If I have the time. I probably won't.

I feel like lately I've been avoiding blogging about really deep stuff. It's not like I don't have deep stuff to write about, it's just that I've been busy, and not having to think too hard on something I feel like is just a huge blessing these days. I've been sleeping really well lately, like, I'll get really tired around this time (look, down. Do eeeth.) and then I'll go to bed at 11:30 pm. That's amazing for me, I hope you realise.

Sexual tension is a funny thing, but it's also kind of nice to at least feel something and know that I don't belong in a convent. I'm pretty sure that, finding myself in such a place, I would be a royal pain in the ass. The abbess would think me a cuss and I would casually attempt to corrupt her minions. And not in a cute Whoopi Goldberg style either. I would fuck them up. "Come on, try it. No really, it's not alcohol, I swear..." (As F put it on the way back in the train, glad she's coming with me on that.) I'm a horrible person.

Yes, yes, I know it depends on the vows you take as a nun...

And I'm only kidding, I have great respect for nuns (they're not just a funny costume to me), but I kind of think they ought to embrace a little bit of that Amish stuff too? You know, let 'em out, have a good time every ten years or so. All I'm saying is that it can't be easy being a nun, and frankly I think God would agree that you ought to give them some fucking rope.

I have muscle twitches in my shoulders, it's really not very comfortable. I'm gonna go put some Aloe Vera on my ear now.

Sun is warm, grass is green...

I'm so frustrated right now. I feel a headache coming on too.
I have sooo many things to do this week and I gotta coordinate everything!

• Filming for final short film project on weekdays, getting everything planned is a pain in my ass
• Prom on Friday
• I bought my ticket today, so now there's no turning back
• Still gotta buy a dress with F tomorrow
• IF THEY'LL LET ME LEAVE THAT IS
• Going to see The Hunger Games on Saturday (kinda want to see The Avengers, but no matter...)
• We're moving. Possibly.

I just want this week to be over. Come give me a break, Saturday... perchance, a chance to nap? Uuuuugh. SUN IS WARM GRASS IS  GREEN. I need to get zen. As in, right now.

How old do you think I am?

A woman decides to have a facelift for her birthday.

She spends $5000 and feels pretty good about the results.

On her way home, she stops at a newsstand to buy a newspaper. Before leaving she says to the clerk, "I hope you don't mind my asking, but how old do you think I am?" "About 32," is the reply. "I'm exactly 47," the woman says happily.

A little while later she goes into McDonald's and asks the counter girl the very same question.
She replies, "I guess about 29." " Nope, I'm 47."

Now, she's feeling really good about herself. She stops in a drug store on her way down the street. She goes up to the counter to get some mints and asks the clerk this burning question.
The clerk responds, "Oh, I'd say 30." Again she proudly responds, "I am 47, but, thank you."

While waiting for the bus to go home, she asks a senior gentleman the same question.
He replies, "Lady, I'm 78 and my eye sight is going. Although, when I was young, there was a sure way to tell how old a woman was. It sounds very forward, but it requires you to let me put my hands under your bra. Then I can tell you exactly how old you are."

They wait in silence on the empty street until curiosity gets the best of her. She finally blurts out, "What the heck, go ahead."

He slips both of his hands under her blouse and under her bra and begins to feel around very slowly and carefully. After a couple of minutes of this, she says, "Okay, okay, how old am I?"
He completes one last squeeze of her breasts, removes his hands, and says, "Madam, you are 47."

Stunned and amazed, the woman says, "That was incredible, how could you tell?"

The old man replies, "Promise you won't get mad?" "Promise," she says.

He replies, "I was behind you in line at McDonald's."

This is the kind of story that tickles me. It's just funny and vulgar in a really innocent way imho.

I feel bloated and stupid

How's that pointless whining?!

Homophobia & You

HOMO-PHOBIA/QUEER-PHOBIA & You (Included those who don't fit in the male/female category e.g. intersexuals, hermaphrodites...)

(Copy and paste if you agree/support)

Homophobia, queerphobia and You: They're people too! Stop the hate and spread the love!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who were the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the hate attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating from high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management/cops called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the fellow human-being who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realised I was transexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.
Re-post this if you believe homophobia/queer-phobia/intersexual-phobia/sexists is wrong. Ending this phobia is not possible, but at least let people know how hard it is to be of the LGBT community.

Music!

☮ When was the last time you went to a concert? Which one was it?

Ummm, two years ago, Linkin Park.

✈ Is there any kind of music that you can’t stand?

Death metal.

☠ Do you play a musical instrument? What instrument?

I wish.

☯ How many CDs do you own? From which artist do you have the most CDs?

Not many... 30-50 ? That'll be Linkin Park.

✌ Name 3 bands you would most like to meet. Why?

Evanescence, Tokio Hotel, and Nickelback, to talk about their new styles, and possibly implore them to please consider taking up their old ones.

✖ What do your parents think about the music you listen to?

BAHA they don't care as long as I keep it down.

☢ Do you still buy CDs? Which was the last CD you bought?

I do not. But the last one I bought, I think was Minutes To Midnight by Linkin Park.

☤ Do you most pay attention to the melody or the lyrics?

Probably the lyrics.

♫ Name your top 3 albums from your favourite band/artist.

 Linkin Park: A Thousand Suns, Meteora, Minutes To Midnight.

★ Is there any music band you liked years ago that you would not like now?

Marion Raven.

✞ Can you concentrate on other things when you are listening to music?

I tell myself that I can.

♛ Name your top 5 music videos.

Fuck. Um. 1) Bedshaped by Keane, 2) Savin' Me by Nickelback, 3) Carnival of Rust by Poets of the Fall, 4) Telephone by Lady Gaga and Beyoncé.

◔  Put your mp3/ipod on shuffle and name the first 5 songs you stumble upon.

1) She's So High by Tal Bachman, 2) All The Right Moves by OneRepublic, 3) A Place For My Head (Live In Texas) by Linkin Park, 4) Psychobabble by Frou Frou, 5) Song To Say Goodbye by Placebo.

☭ Punk or heavy metal?

Heavy metal.

ϟ  Do you sing in the shower?

It's more like humming tbh.

☫ How much time do you spend listening to music every day?

That varies. At the very least half an hour combined...

ø  If you could play any musical instrument, what would it be?

Electrical violin.

‽  If you could take the place of a band member for one day, who would it be?

 Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park. I'm sure there's some fun shit going on behind closed doors.

✒ If you were a song, what song would you be and why?

Life In Technicolor by Coldplay. Boo you, it's cheery and lovely but very subtly bitching.

☺ What do you think the world would be like without music?

Deaf.

♠  Name one manufactured band (in your opinion).

 Backstreet Boys.

✦ What musicians did you like 5 years ago? 10 years ago?

Nik & Jay, Bryan Rice, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Aqua... the shit.

♜ If you could invent a new instrument, what would it sound like?

Something like a mix between a calliope and a violin, me thinks. Calliolin?

♟ If you could be any musician in the world, who would you be and why?

I'm bored with these 'who would you be' questions. Miley Cyrus.

WANT

It turns red when it gets wet!!!

Best weekend ever tbh

Home alone

For the entire weekend. Hahahahaha life's good. I've been drinking water and sniffing cinnamon all day. Cooking some applesauce right now, umf. Looking forward to it. I'm not even as hungry as I thought I would be at this point, and what does that tell us? I can so go on less on weekdays as well. I'm making a big portion so I'll have some for later when Game of Thrones comes on. Yayayaya, I know, but I have guy friends as well, who, for some reason, value my opinion on these things. Gotta do your homework.

How do you think they feel?

"I can't know that until I try it."

This angers me.

No empathy from the 13-year-old "grown up".

I'm honestly getting so sick of her bullshit.

I'm cold, so I'm drinking Hot n' Sweet

Need new bikini top

The 65F days are over, guys. What'll it be then? More exercise and less excess sugar is what. I've been doing good so far.

Let's get weird

Alright, we're in the AM and no one's looking. GO GO GO.

• 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? AHAHAHAHA can I just get really drunk first?
• 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? -gasp- I did.
• 3. Have you taken someone's virginity? God, I'm not sure I could do that...
• 4. Is trust a big issue for you? Nah.
• 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? I'm with me constantly, in fact.
• 6. What are you excited for? SATURDAY, BITCH.
• 7. What happened tonight? I never thought I could feel so awesome and so pathetic at the same time.
• 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Don't be sexist, everybody's disgusting when they're really wasted.
• 9. Is confidence cute? If applied correctly, it can be.
• 10. What is the last beverage you had? Tea, omg.
• 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Jeez, I dunno...
• 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? I honestly can't tell what they are...
• 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? PARTAAAY.
• 14. What are you going to spend money on next? Probably food?
• 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? That'd be a no.
• 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? God, I hope so.
• 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? An adult.
• 18. The last time you felt broken? Yesterday, when I finished my workout.
• 19. Have you had sex today? Considering the time, I think that'd be a very ambitious of me if I had...
• 20. Are you starting to realize anything? I should get laid soon.
• 21. Are you in a good mood? Walkin' on sunshine, mothafucka.
• 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? Hells to the no.
• 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? I actually think so.
• 24. What do you want right this second? Brad Pitt, methinks.
• 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? Well, fuck.
• 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Yeeeess.
• 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? Naw.
• 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Right here, chief.
• 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Truly, I do not.
• 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? For my sake, I'm gonna go with yes.
• 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? Nope.
• 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? My feelings are seeing someone behind my back, aren't they? AREN'T THEY?
• 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? You bet. Unless it's got alcohol in there, I'm not fucking drinking it.
• 34. Listening to? Electrical humming.
• 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? Sure.
• 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? Can't be arsed to care.
• 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes.
• 38. Who did you last call? My best friend.
• 39. Who was the last person you danced with? I wanna say me.
• 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Seemed like a good idea at the time?
• 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Oh man, too long ago...
• 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? Don't, you'll make me feel bad.
• 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? I do little else.
• 44. Do you tan in the nude? I tan I get skin cancer, so no.
• 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? I'm sure I should.
• 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Nah, I'm not that polite...
• 47. Who was the last person to call you? MUMMYYY.
• 48. Do you sing in the shower? Occasionally.
• 49. Do you dance in the car? No, I'm dead on the outside when I'm in a car.
• 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Don't remind me...
• 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? January or something.
• 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? I think some are.
• 53. Is Christmas stressful? YES.
• 54. Ever eat a pierogi? sgasdhjasdkjghkasdj yes.
• 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple, nom nom nom.
• 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Nothing comes to mind.
• 57. Do you believe in ghosts? What, you mean you don't?
• 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Constantly. Less than five minutes ago.
• 59. Take a vitamin daily? Mas o menos.
• 60. Wear slippers? No.
• 61. Wear a bath robe? Yes.
• 62. What do you wear to bed? Nothing/underwear/nightgown, whatever I feel like.
• 63. First concert? LOL Celine Dion.
• 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target.
• 65. Nike or Adidas? Adidas.
• 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? None.
• 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Sunflower seeds.
• 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? Safe and Sound.
• 69. Ever take dance lessons? No.
• 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? I dunno, a spy or something?
• 71. Can you curl your tongue? Sometimes.
• 72. Ever won a spelling bee? Never participated in one, I don't think.
• 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes.
• 74. What is your favorite book? Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
• 75. Do you study better with or without music? Depends.
• 76. Regularly burn incense? No.
• 77. Ever been in love? Yes.
• 78. Who would you like to see in concert? Evanescence, maybe? I wouldn't mind seeing Linkin Park again.
• 79. What was the last concert you saw? Linkin Park <3
• 80. Hot tea or cold tea? Hot, wtf?
• 81. Tea or coffee? Tea, omg.
• 82. Favorite type of cookie? Any.
• 83. Can you swim well? If I have to.
• 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Pfft, yah.
• 85. Are you patient? Mhm.
• 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? Band.
• 87. Ever won a contest? I don't know that I ever won anything.
• 88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nope.
• 89. Which are better black or green olives? None.
• 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Just fucking do it.
• 91. Best room for a fireplace? Nursery? >:) Nah, just kidding. KITCHEN, MOTHAFUCKA.
• 92. Do you want to get married? Yea, but just that once.

GOODNIGHT

Sondre Leiche and The Faces Down Quartet - Minor Detail

Just, I effin' want this

It's a parabox! :D

Ahahahaha easter egg, you kill me D:<

OH MA JIZZ

Remember this guy?

No? This here is Bill Kaulitz from the German band Tokio Hotel. Or at least it was, back in 2010. Something happened, and to be honest it had me flailing for a while. I am a fan, I adore their music, their style, and I paid money to attend one of their concerts. I regret nothing. But I do miss the band, and just now I went to have a look at their website to see if I could sniff out some information about any new album projects they might be working on. I never got that far, see, because I found a titbit saying Bill had gotten a new tattoo. Naturally I went to Google to follow up on that, and what do I find in the midst of things?

Never mind the hair, the hair is okay. I can dig that. But why the beard, I wonder? Yesterday I had a few friends over and for one reason or the other I had to look up some pictures of TH on Google. The guys were being juvenile about Bill's looks as always, and I can't account for all the fucks I do not give, but I can't help but wonder what they would have to say about this picture. Would I then have to defend his not being androgynous anymore? Never mind, it doesn't matter as long as Bill's happy with it and FOR GOD'S SAKE keeps making music. Anyway, can I just say... I will always adore the smokey eyes. Shame they appear to have gone.

Sad me is sad

55 kilos. Making me sad. But before I get depressing, I'm going to get me some breakfast and march my sad ass out of here, turn a right, and go climb the emergency stairs. Vigorously so. And damn me if I'm not going to create the meanest calorie deficit EVER. Time to get serious.

F is doing this thing with her mum: they weigh the food at every big meal they eat and make sure it's 300 gr or something. I wish I had the guts to ask my mum to do something like that with me. MUR HURR.

But I'm... writing again? #pathetic

Ain't that the truth!!

Seriously though, I am getting some major editing done.

Spring Break!

Yeeeeeeeeeessss! Spring break coupled with the fact that it's Friday = contentment like no other. And you know me, I've already got a list of things I gotta do before the end of next week...

• settle movie project with media group
• hit the gym at least 3 times (without bitching, gosh!)
• drink a bottle of Pinot Blanc
• get writing done
• get reading done
• watch Tintin with mum
• call Anja and figure stuff out
• wtf is up with Anja?
• weigh myself -- once.

And I think that covers the most important stuff. On another note, I definitely just watched Milk. And I definitely loved it. It's these kind of movies that makes the American people more admirable to me. Sean Penn and James Franco oh mah jizz...... 52 and 34 respectively. Now, it has been previously established that I would have absolutely no qualms about getting with people twice or thrice my age (i.e. Tim Roth, Johnny Depp, Colin Firth (let's not stop here, shall we?), Ralph Fiennes, Adrien Brody, Helena Bonham Carter, Reese Witherspoon, Gary Oldman, Winona Ryder, Jude Law, Ben Affleck, Hugh Jackman, Liam Neeson, Viggo Mortensen, Reese Pierce Brosnan, Gerard Butler (ugh, the things I would do to them, I can't even)) but I just don't know.  I mean sure, I have an interest in younger actors as well (i.e. Jamie Bell, Heath Ledger,  Carey Mulligan, Natalie Portman, Christina Ricci, Robert Pattinson (shut up, and watch Remember Me), Ellen Page, Emma Watson, Olivia Wilde, Tom Felton, Hayden Christensen) but I gotta say this one is tough. I gotta say I feel more comfortable and familiar with Franco, but Sean Penn's delivery made this movie! And it's definitely going on my top 10 favourites.

Feel free to assume that the above paragraph was mainly an excuse to list actors/actresses that I would gladly get with. You would not be wrong. I embarrass me sometimes.

Rhye - Open

NO, I haven't lost it...

By no means. Just because I'm lying in bed on a Tuesday night, watching Tintin and sipping Hot n' Sweet, doesn't mean I've lost my touch. I've got this motha.

Nightly escapade

Okay, maybe not. I woke up at some point during the night. Felt drunk (wasn't). Sat up in bed, turned on my bedside lamp. And then I just sat there with my legs over the side of the bed. Watching my upturned lower arms. Don't know for how long. At some point I held them closer to the lamp, and looked at the spot on the side of the wrists, the one we all know. I could see my pulse there, and somehow it became the most fascinating thing I had ever laid eyes on. Don't know how long I sat like that. My guess is 8 minutes.

Do tell, what does all this tell us?

I want this back

Sometimes I think I ought to be careful about what I write here

But then what would be the point?

Also

• Totally got to see 20-year-old Estonian hipster Ralph Fiennes at a bar in Tallinn. So random
• so awesome
• finished Gideon's Corpse in Tallinn
• epic!
• bought a new book at the airport
• 3. person, present tense. Odd?
• the answer is yes
• still need to read the Prague Cemetery.

Worried yet again

Yes. I'm back. And I've set the mood with some music, hope ya dig.

Tomorrow I'll be going back to school and it sucks there because people annoy me right now, but oh hell. It's nothing personal, I guess at the moment I'm just... not prepared to be around them. I've spent so much time with my class in Tallinn, and now I feel like I know some of them a little better. Yeah, some more than others, oh ma jizz... I should probably talk to some of them soon and resolve some of the things said and done in my drunken state. Stuff went on that I just... I mean, for instance, this is the second time I've had a heart-to-heart with L, completely shitfaced, and I kind of miss that in my sober friends in general... A just seems to roll with it, either humouring me half-heartedly or just complaining about this and that, asking for my opinion and then ignoring me afterwards. It's confusing.

I don't know if we're drifting apart exactly, I just know I've felt like this before. We still have those moments; instances of "oh my gawd, that's what I was thinking", saying the same thing simultaneously, and replying before any questions could be asked. That's us, but it's different. Sometimes I'll tell him random stuff, ask him things, trying to engage him in conversation. Just trying to get him to talk to me. But then afterwards I realise how the things I said probably weren't of any interest to him at all, let alone relevant..... ugh, and I think about how awkward I am with people.

When we were in Tallinn, C called me a social butterfly. I don't even know. 

Urban Dictionary's opinion on the matter is this:

"Someone who is VERY social and easygoing; can be either a male or a female. Usually these people don’t belong to a particular group, but rather jump from one group to another. They are somewhat accepted in all of them, but don’t really have any deep friendship connections in any of them."

I guess that sounds about right. I should probably focus on what keeps us together for the moment. At least I have an overview.

And it's a good thing I have F to talk to, her and A are so perfectly far apart right now, and it's like I don't have to worry about anything when I'm with her.

Tiffany Alvord & Megan Nicole - Safe and Sound (cover)

Turns out, there is no sequel

Sick of Ms Winter

I just want to lie down on a warm beach somewhere and let the sun bake the winter out of me. Seriously so tired of being cold all the time. I don't suppose the weather in Tallinn will be much different -- yesss, I'm going to Estonia on Monday. Five days of study tour, I can't say I'm not even a little bit excited. Somewhere warmer would have been fantastic, though, but what the hell. My little sister will be going to Prague later this month, just for a weekend, but I am a little jealous. It is a lot of money for just one weekend though.

What else, um:

• Flat Stomach is back <3
• New shirts
• New headphones
• Finished Twilight Eyes by Dean Koontz
• Will have to get the sequel for my birthday
• Gonna bring Alternative Realities with me to Tallinn
•  Hair is getting long and it's lovely

Remind me to do a post on how I'm struggling in my media group.

Billetnet.dk, you kill me

I wanted 2 tickets to the Anders show. Not 4. You are a pain, and you're taking my money. No refunds, you say? Good thing I have PEOPLE who are kind enough to buy the extra tickets from me for full price. You bastard, I hate you.

Writing manuscripts in the AM (y)

Way over it

Really, Sookie?

REALLY? Sorry, I've been watching True Blood all day, and my beef with Sookie Stackhouse mostly lies in how incredibly annoying she is. I know that's not saying a lot but, but I'll try to explain. This chick is so high maintenance it is beyond me how she ends up having to choose between two devoted vampire suitors, and then decides to dump both of them. What the fucking fuck?

And she is so self-righteous about it too. Sure she cries, but dammit, girl, what these two have been going through just to save your skinny ass is NOT peanuts! Why is nobody else upset with her? Admittedly, I may or may not have been paying much attention towards the end of the show, but that scene just got me bent out of shape.

Inconsistent personalities in TV shows annoy me. Those writers are doing a poor job in my humble opinion. I am convinced they made this happen because of something equally silly they've got planned, no doubt something just as dumb as Bill suddenly becoming King. But that is a whole other beef for another time, my dears.

Thank God for Sundays

On stuff

Just a couple of things, awesome and lame, about yesterday and today:

• Watched Princess Mononoke, and man, is that film great or what?
• Transguy (female to male) came out to the class. How is this not awesome?
• Weigh 53 kilos, still, which means I haven't gained in a month, which is good
• It's A's birthday today.
• He's getting everyone beer after school
• Which is awesome
• I'm going to dine with his family and closest friends tonight
• Which is going to very nice
• Will get him shit-faced afterwards.

Allison Harvard

Prettaaay. <3 She is so tiny-looking for a 5'10 girl.

^ This is how I've been feeling all day. Including the man blatantly leering at me.

The root of all evil

... Mondays. In your heart, you know it to be true. Again, my body was a terrible place to be today. And it's only about 20% my doing.

• Went to bed at 2 am last night
• Hence the headaches
• No water = dehydrated
• Entirely too much homework in need of doing
• Teacher took us to an ACTA hearing
• Shit lasted until effin' 7.30 pm
• My back was a bitch
• My knee was a total douche and a jerkface
• I was learning until effin' 7.30 pm, guys
• Exhausted
• I EARNED THIS CUP OF TEA

Seriously though, I need to do my homework. And down lots and lots and lots of tea. And in the interest of staying forever procrastinating, I'm gonna take my sweet time on the loo too.

Guess what

I'm not a robot! And I like this song. Peace!

Also

• I went to the gym for an hour just now to maybe sweat the illness out?
• Shut up
• My dad called and informed me that he bought me new headphones
• That is absolutely awesome
• Finished my English assignment
• Also awesome
• I get shit done on my sick-days.

I may suffer through the whole thing, but it'll be done.

Also, also:

• Nap-time?

Stupid bodyzz

I am so sick right now, and everything is hot and I feel disgusting. I make this weird wheezing sound when I breathe, my head hurts, my eyes are out of focus, and generally my body is just an effing awful place to be in right now. Didn't feel hungry at all this morning and I felt like I might actually throw up if I did eat something... so I'm just getting lunch now. You know, when was 12 or 13 or so I never EVER ate breakfast, because I would just consistently vomit if I did. Only liquids would stay inside, but I even had trouble with milk. Can't imagine how badly that butchered my metabolism.

Speaking of things butchered, my sleeping pattern is just IN PIECES at the moment. I get home and I want to nap sooo badly, after 6 pm my mind and creative energy just starts to boost, and then I stay up till like 2 am on the worst of days. I thought A was happing trouble sleeping, but then he says "man, I couldn't sleep until 11 pm" and I'm left there groaning and wanting to smack my head down into the desk. 11 pm?! Are you serious?! Wherein lies the justice? WHERE?!

Happy birthday Mr Cobain

Sometimes I sincerely believe that sleeping is a waste of time

ugh ugh ugh

Mum printed out and tried too show me the amount of money of her life insurance. Told her I didn't want to see it, and she told me "you shouldn't deny things", and now I'm pissed again. Does she want me to go 'ooh' and 'aah', honestly?! I don't know what's going on with her lately.

I feel very odd

Inspired

Hello, hello, hello... Poor blog, I've been horribly neglecting lately. Well, Winter Break's been a busy time for me. I don't know what kept me from simply opening a word document and writing what was on my mind so I would have a blog entry at the ready when I got internet, but as you are probably realising just now, my immediate thought would be something like, "Yeah, too much work", and ain't that the truth?!

This vacation has included, but is certainly not limited to:

• Being overwhelmed by the attention from Jutlandish boys wanting to take me out (in the nice way).
• Getting drunk and crying about my dad because my mum's got no sense of proper consideration in a given situation?
• Listening to my drunk mum talking shit about my dad and my step sister.
• So stupid, that, mum. I resent those statements.
• Watching Sherlock.
• Watching more Sherlock.
• Playing chess.
• Obsessing over Sherlock.

I've been watching Sherlock... a lot. This has caused me some level of mental aloofness and I'm happy to say I have enjoyed this state of complete preoccupation for as long as I have up until this point... So many scenarios take place in my brain these days, and I'm pleased to say many of them have been written down already. Many of them include my favourite brainchild, Mannis Rose, just saying. So much muse.

We are situated in Esbjerg at the moment, and arrangements involving our departure has been set in motion. Soon I'll be home.

The hair is fab

So I'm not really any bigger, I realised upon taking my measures. All the fat seems to have gone straight to my tits because they are a motherfucking nightmare right now. Seriously, they're a mess, but that could just be the fact that I'm on my period, I guess?

Well, at least my hair looks a-fucking-mazing. <3
I have a cough and my skin is so flippin' itchy UGH.
I must have a cold or dry skin or syphilis or whatever,
so I guess there's gonna be no sexing someone up on Saturday.
But I've got my eye on her.

Distracting taboos having been covered in one post, I feel like now I can be more frank. Don't be scared, it'll be glorious.

Sometimes I find it hard to distinguish between girls I wanna date and girls I wanna look like :|

Busyhead

Okay, I have been super busy doing this written assignment anditsnotfuckingdoneyet -shakes fist at the heavens- hence the low posting rate.

On a completely unrelated note: what is the deal with protesters wearing Guy Fawkes masks? Now I see it all over Facebook profiles as well in conjunction with ACTA protests. I mean, I don't mind, I've just been giving this some thought... 

On one hand it seems ignorant to hide behind a mask and leave that to speak for itself. I realise that it symbolises rebellion and rising against the government, but I think simply quoting a hollywood movie (which did have some very valid points, though terrorism is hardly something I would want protesters to embrace) isn't gonna cut it in the long run. The mask will eventually become irrelevant and the message will weaken if there are no new words to feed it. I'd hate to see the mask and its message become a generic gesture, and that's mostly what concerns me because then the government won't care, if they ever did.

On the other hand, it is a great message. I think it's good for people to realise that they are not powerless if they stay united and persevere. I'm going to the protest later this month.

All this stuff about Anonymous... I think it's a good concept, but I don't necessarily believe that anarchism is the only way to go, nor do appreciate it when their message is stuffed down my throat by their followers. And it has been. Maybe it's just that the followers in my general vicinity are extraordinary obnoxious about it, but I'll turn the other cheek. It's not about the individual supporter of an idea.

As the Joker once said: it's all about sending a message. And I'll be damned if the government doesn't need one right now.

Courtney inspires me

Turns out, I know exactly what to do

Moving forward

It is February 1st, and in approximately 7 hours I will step on the scale... Everything else, doing alright. B-A is gone, basically, but I will have to deal with that on my own. I'm trying to stay likeable, but I can't help but feel the stress coming around back. I have published another chapter of Lethal Masterpiece.