This November. Not only that, but the orthodontist said they were willing to do it for free. What is up. Gah, so excited.
Monday, September 24
Thursday, September 6
Wednesday, September 5
Hello, it's me again
And I'm sad to say that I dove head-first into an emotional breakdown today. I can't concentrate on anything, school least of all, people even less, so what do I do? I blog.
I used to just casually roleplay via mobile with this girl for like 3 years, every day, but we sort of lost contact about a year ago. She lives near me, but we never really discussed meeting or anything like that. We were pretty tight though. But today I recognised her walking towards me on the street. I froze and she walked past me, I just didn't know what to say. I wanted to say something. I wanted to reach out to her, say hi, talk to her, but I was scared shitless that she wouldn't be interested in talking to me at all. I just told her my name like a year ago. I don't believe she even knows how I look, I've been far more secretive than her, sometimes crazily and unnecessarily so.
I haven't felt this much regret since I don't even know when. I've been wanting to bang my head against a wall all day. I should have said something. What harm could it have done?
Well, by the time I got over myself I had gone to meet my friends, but then I texted her, telling her kind of awkwardly that I thought I just spotted her. She hasn't replied yet, and I'm thinking maybe she changed her number or something. We haven't texted in about 1½ months, so it's a possibility.
I guess I'll just wait it out.
I'm so full of regret, I don't even understand what this is.
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