Grow the fuck up

"I didn't do it" "It's not my fault" "I didn't do anything wrong" AAAARGH.

*headdesk*

Yeah, I'm frustrated. And hungry. And having ladypains.

Homework, you kill me

I am doomed.

Compensation

It seems like all I do now is looking up friggin' recipes. It strikes me as a bit odd, and then again it kind of makes sense. I asked Mom if I can make potato pie for dinner tomorrow, and she said sure. I'm excited. Baking those cupcakes the other day got me pretty high as well, so maybe it's just a new fetish of mine? Or maybe it's just my way of controlling stuff around dinner time, I get so stressed out to tension when we're all gathered. I had a talk about that with D a little while ago, and I just realised how much that bothers me by actually speaking up because I didn't think it was such a big deal. Just a pet peeve or something like that... but I think it would cause anybody to react negatively. I just don't see why they can't be nice to each other instead of constantly bullying and giving each other dirty looks across the table like little kids. But when I make dinner it helps, somewhat...

NOMNOMNOM!!!

Besides looking at recipes, I've also been looking into climbing, as a sports-thing. You know, when you climb up a wall with straps on and stuff. I want to 'cause I know it's so much fun. It's gonna kill my biceps though, haha.

Daddyyyyy...

Not only do I want this book, I NEED this book.

I love Dad when he buys me books. ^^

Works like a charm, no hard feelings!

Cupcakes!

Went to the State Museum of Art in Copenhagen with the class today. We only had like two hours to get there, get a tour, and get back. Naturally I got lost at some point; I was taking pictures, minding my own business, and when I turned around the rest of the group had gone along without me. I had a somewhat quiet ten minutes to myself strolling in and out of the galleries, before I ran into the others again. I just had an apple and a lot of water for breakfast, so I was getting kind of hungry by then... I went to the bank to get a little bit of money to buy lunch for and just so I could make it through the rest of the month. It was freezing, so me and M bought cups of hot chocolate at the train station - and I also bought a scone. 

*headdesk*

I didn't even want it, I wanted to buy something good back at the cafeteria! It's not a guilt trip or an ohmygod I'm gonna get fat pathetic one-way speech... I'm just regretting it at this point, 'cause I'm trying to eat healthy, and stuff like that is just dead food with no nutrition. Ugh. Guess everybody experiences that. I'm gonna start on an oatmeal-deal every morning I think. It's warm and gets the stomach working. GOOD FOOD. Apples are good too, they're just too sour and light for a morning meal.

Tonight I'll be joining the ladies for an episode of Desperate Housewifes and possibly Dagens Mand. Nothing as pleasantly mindnumbing as sassy old women picking on each other, and a bit of Danish reality show. It'll be nice I'm sure... and quite impulsively I decided I wanted to make cupcakes to go with me. More dead food! Well... less dead food, I kept the sugar level on the low side. They still taste wonderful.

Dad called and asked if he could see me next weekend instead of this one... he went through the treatment thrice before it went away, and the lotion is really expensive, so he wants me to be sure I'm bug-free before I can come to see him. I get that, but still I'm a little disappointed - he hasn't even seen my new hair yet. I'll just look forward to it.

I miss Heath.

Show those biatches!

Just sayin'

I think Johnny should focus on roles like these.

I hit my left elbow thrice before school. Felt faint for a little while, so I drank a lot of water. It kind of scares me a little, but I can tell pretty much by the manner of the blow whether I should be careful or not. I love being the last one to leave in the mornings. Don't necessarily have to eat anything - but I did  grab an apple on the way out... aaand everything fell down the stairs.

 I need control, because this won't do.

Recovering

I feel on top of things now. I kicked some serious parasite butt while I was on a trying journey away from home. I feel like a slayer, waaah. And I arrived safely back. Blah blah blah. Still feeling a little itchy though, but apparently that's just post-symptoms... plus the cold is pretty hard for my skin. Silly redhead. I'm getting high on music, there's seriously nothing better than leaning back and cruising through this kind of stuff...

School's back on my case on Monday... It'll be alright, my doctor says it's okay. No chance of me fucking up everybody else's immune system. Yay. I feel like I missed out on a lot of drinking this past week. I really wanted to go to that thing last Saturday... Oh well, I'm sure I'll be fine without the extra alcohol. (NoI'mdyingWAAH)

I've missed everyone. Not really excited about the English essay, oddly enough... it seems kind of boring, I'll just end up writing something mediocre, I think. Funny how that works. And I really hope I did well on the math test, I NEED at least one good grade to keep me from giving up.

Why are insides so hard to draw, ugh. -.-

NEED

I feel kind of unstable when such small things make me want to break down into tears. Thankfully it only lasts about three seconds, and then I can just feel bitter. Lunch? Really? Stop squirming, you're going down the trash can. I am so behind with my writing, ugh. I have to get at least one chapter finished tonight. Then I can just go at it while we're away in the summer house - Mom said no internet, so I'll have to rely on the computer dictionary... Just please tell me there's at least a DVD player? Stupid teenager. I would give anything for a vacation consisting of just being at home, doing whatever the hell I want, whether it be drinking my brains out all night or watching an effin' documentary. I suppose that's all going to have to wait until summer. Which is fine, actually.

I have downloaded so much wonderful music, I can't wait for the car ride.

 

I'll take the juice box. Hard to fuck that up anyway. I felt on top of things during the math test. Glad S took time to explain that small problem to me, otherwise I would've been screwed. He's more patient than I first assumed. And I made it to philosophy class next semester yay!

Beat it

I think DK should go shit in the woods.

Totally unnecessary

Everything is so friggin' slow at the moment. I'm slow. Defect, sick, broken, out of order. My performance is blah and I cannot wrap my mind around what people are saying. One thing I did register though, was that I'm due for a haircut today. Mom's gonna come pick me up, so I can't be with M before later. We'll go to the pharmacy together, and we'll get me something that is not a complete waste of money. I probably shouldn't hang out with M anyway though.. She would most likely just catch whatever foul bacteria is messing with my body atm. I hate bacteria, I get so obsessed with everything being clean, and I gotta change everything. Bed sheets, clothes, heat, diet. Bloody annoying, but oh-so necessary. I feel like eating something hot for lunch. Isn't that supposed to be healthy or something?

Anyway... I'm looking forward to winter break. Getting away will be nice, I just hope I'm not still sick then. It'll leave a lot of time to write and take pictures. That's two things I can do without the internet. If there isn't any, I probably won't be able to blog but oh well... I'll make a nice post when I get back I think. Something is definitely wrong with my left ear, it's so uncomfortable feeling like something inside you is about to burst.

Benylan, you kill me

Something about my health is defect at the moment, I can't seem to breathe without something nasty happening. Well I'm coughing a lot, and this headache just won't go away. My mom felt bad for me yesterday, so she went to the pharmacy to buy me drugs -- yay! But ugh. This sticky, distasteful, PINK stuff just hasn't helped AT ALL. I couldn't sleep because of the coughing all the time. Mom got sick of the noise around 1 am and got me a pill and a glass of water -- I don't think it was specifically for coughing problems, but it sure sedated my brain and got rid of the swelling in my throat. So now I'm running late for school. Can't really afford a sick-day with these numbers lying around...

Kickin' it up!

Blog initiated!

For those of you who might be wondering: yes, I am in fact being serious about this whole... thing. It's not going to be half-hearted, it's not going to be all that pleasant, and at least I hope it's not going to be boring. For everybody, I mean I won't post just for the hell of it -- and then again I might do just that! Post a bunch of pictures, music, a link, a poem -- stuff that serve no purpose whatsoever, but might be entertaining and/or educational on some level.

By now you will probably have noticed a significant detail; t'yarh, I'm writing this in English. Too bad. But really, tell me they don't have a bad-ass vocabulary. It's easier for me, plain and simple. And I can reach more people this way, I guess a few of my foreign friends would appreciate it. :)

Returning to the level of seriousness... This may or may not turn out to be a bad idea, when I get started on certain matters. I would appreciate it if you'll let me do the sharing, not the other way around. If you are reading this, rest assured that's exactly what you were meant to do. Do not treat my blog as a public newspaper -- I will hunt you down and eat you, if you do. It might contain every day matters with no significance whatsoever... and then you might discover some personal material as well.

These are my humble opinions and general daydreams, please treat them as such.