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Friday, December 30

I need to become a better liar

So I'm pretty much back on the "only eat to prove you eat" deal. There's no other way, since I can't really... control myself around food when I'm alone, it seems. Makes me sad. I've realised that I really, really, really don't want to gain any more weight. I want to go back to 48-49 kilos. The issue here is people as much as it is me. Mum just got home ten minutes ago and she saunters in to my room like:

Mum: "Heeey, have you just been sitting here all day without eating or drinking anything?"

Me: "o.O'"

How does she do that?!

Mum: "...Well, have you?"

Me: "Well, you said it."

I was so baffled. Why couldn't I just shake my head and be like: "Naw, I've been to the gym, eaten lots of stuff and yep, you guessed it, I am fully hydrated." Why? So I was just promptly escorted to the kitchen to drink a cup of milk and make off with a müsli bar. Not the worst thing that could've happened. Dinner is coming. And now I feel like maybe I have a problem.

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