Spass

I just had a Fanta for dinner, and now the only thing I can think about is sugar. I'm craving it so badly, right now I'm just drinking water, water, water... hoping it'll go away. But no matter how much I drink, I can still feel it on my tongue, it's heavenly, and my skin tickles. Far out, dude...! It's a weird feeling.

I have mixed feelings about school today. On one hand, it was really fun with the political roleplaying and lively discussions in our groups for the day... but on the other hand, the group that I'm supposed to do the presentation with (a.k.a the group that matters), I just got frustrated. Had a hard time focusing. And suddenly A was just gone, and I couldn't get a hold of him on his cell phone. The other two were stuck in their roleplaying groups, so they couldn't exactly help out, but that's okay... we'll just have to get a good look at things tomorrow. Even though I talked to A, after I had F call him (funny how that works), and he told me he had worked on the project by himself I couldn't really shake my dissatisfaction. Dunno why, technically he got more done than the rest of us. I just wish he wouldn't have left, so we could have discussed it together - at least as half a group.

F got really upset, as she does, and told me I needed to shout at him more haha... I don't think so. It's not just that I absolutely hate shouting, and frankly I don't think I possess the ability to scream at all, but he rarely lets me down besides. I don't want scold him all the time, like I don't feel like his mother enough already! But when he called me later, he apologised anyway, even though I tried being business-like haha... Sometimes I suspect that I'm not really that good at concealing my emotions as I think I am. I hope it's because he knows me, I don't like the thought of being transparent to anyone else as well.

Oh this is really bad, Mom brought me M&M's. Sugaaaar... sorry. If I keep this up, I won't be able to fall asleep tonight. I lost a kilo... Uhm. Yeah, I don't like that. No mooore... I just want to be more slender, not underweight!