Anticipation

I'm getting nervous. Anxious, really. About next Wednesday. 

1st of February. 

Where weighing will occur. I was hoping it would take longer, but I guess not. It's already on my mind. What I'm worried about is whether I will have gained a lot or lost a little. It will be one of those two. I don't know what I'll do if it's more than 53 kilos. Honestly. What is wrong with me? It's been in the back of my head all January, and a close friend of mine told me to take a test. You know, one of those "professional" ones on the interwebs. I guess I could try to search for a decent one, since I really don't want to go see my doctor about that.


But I also can't help but look suspiciously at the screen in those situations and think in a James Dean voice: "Who are you to judge me?"