I know what it is

Alright, I finally know what's been bothering me these past few weeks. You know that nagging feeling when something's annoying you but you can't seem to figure out what it is? I thought it was my weight gain after fall break, but it' snot! (see what I did there?). It's just that... I want the scale to read 48 kg, and it's just being stubbornly insistent on 49.4. 400 g. That's how much is between me and that. And it's just annoying. I'm cool, I'm not obsessing over it, I just think it's a downer. 48 kg just seems even more ideal because I  c a n n o t  f u c k i n g  g e t  t h e r e. But it's the perfect balance between 50 kg and being underweight -- don't want that.

What else is new:

• I received my school photos in the mail this morning... not as bad as I expected. Pleased. Not bad. Well done.
• I'm gonna get Kafka on the Shore this Monday, eeek. :D So excited to read it.
• I'm making tiramisu this afternoon because we're having guests over tomorrow. I'll be sure to post a picture of it here when it's done.
• The Thing About Love is practically writing itself again. I'll be publishing the next chapter tonight if all goes well.